Hey all you blog reading people on the
internet, I'm TheCinemaChick! You know and possibly love me as the
girl who sees way too many movies and then reports back to you. I
know I've been gone for a while, but please forgive me. I was rather
sick for a while and couldn't even get out of bed. Also, my brother
and his family will be moving far away soon so I've been trying to
see them as much as possible before they leave. And on top of
that...well, I trust you guys enough to say this. When MovieMomma
passed away, she was cremated and I plan to scatter them over water
somewhere, like the ocean. Well, due to scheduling, financial issues
and general disagreements on what she wanted, my brother and I have
yet to say our final goodbyes. So...as of now...I am caring for
MovieMomma's ashes.
It hit me hard when I received them.
It was like another reminder that she's gone, so I was incredibly
depressed for several days. I took about two days off to just cry
and think about her.
Other than that, things are going
quite well. My dog is happy and healthy, which is good because he
had some issues for a while but he's over them. I'm pretty sure you
don't really care about me just going on and on about my personal
life. No, you're here for the movies! Of course, how silly of me.
So, I just counted and there are seven
reviews that will be done today and tomorrow. I would knock them all
out today but tonight, Fry and I are going to see “Into The Storm”.
She thinks it'll be good but I'm only so -so on it. It looks ok,
nothing special. We might be joined by my Other Mother, and no, not
like the one in Coraline. Fry's family has become like a second
family to me over the years. Her mother looks out for me, so she's
like another mother for me, hence why I call her my Other Mother.
Seriously, I don't know what I would have done without them. They've
helped me out in so many bad situations. I will never be able to
repay all the kindness they've shown me in the past ten years.
Once again, off topic!
Let's discuss a little known film
called “Begin Again”. It's had minimal advertising and it
quietly started in theaters a little over two weeks ago. It's
nothing special, just another love story with music mixed in. The
story itself I didn't care for. The characters were just okay,
nothing terribly memorable. I take that back. At one point, Adam
Levine sports a massive beard that just looks awful on him. It's
like he's an Amish greaser or something. Let that image soak into
your mind for a while. An Amish greaser.
It's a typical story, boy gets famous,
boy cheats on girl, girl leaves, girl gets over it and becomes
independent. Like I said, its nothing new or even interesting. What
does help is that Mark Ruffalo is an alcoholic music producer who
stumbles upon Keira Knightley at a bar and begins making music with
her. And in case you're wondering, that is not a euphemism for
anything. However, as they cannot afford a studio to record a demo,
they just record wherever they can. One song is done in an alley,
another one in some boats, one on a roof, you get the idea. And the
music isn't even that original either. But it's got something in
there that I have to admit, I really liked.
The songs themselves are quite catchy,
especially “Lost Stars” whether you choose the remix or original.
Both Knightley and Levine sing a version of it, which makes an
interesting comparison. Both renditions are equally amazing in their
own right, I will admit. I wish there was something more to the
story because then it would have blown me away. My favorite
character was Mark Ruffalo's purely because he was just a cranky
older guy who liked bossing people around. He wasn't an annoying
lovesick person who wanted to redeem themselves. Don't get me wrong,
everything works out perfectly in the end. I take that back, because
the main characters are left on a very vague note. It's never state
if they get back together. She releases the album online but after
that, the film ends. So its possible they never, ever, ever got back
together. And yes, I did use a Taylor Swift song there.
“Begin Again” isn't for everyone.
It's a good movie to watch with your girlfriends. Adam Levine looks
good as always, even if he does look terrible with that beard. The
songs are catchy and many of them did end up on my spotify play list.
It's not for everyone but once you see it, you'll probably a way to
find it sneak into your movie collection.
I'm going to end that review on a
short note because I've been at a loss for words for a few days. As
you all know, Robin Williams tragically passed away. His death was a
suicide. I started to write something about his career and how it
affected me, but I managed about five paragraphs before I stopped.
I, like many people out there, am stunned. I have trouble believing
this happened. It was very shocking, very sudden. The funniest man
many of us grew up with is now gone. It's almost as if an era has
ended. Many of us will never forget him in “Mrs. Doubtfire”,
Genie in “Aladdin” and “Hook”.
I had another upsetting event taking
place at the same time so losing an actor I highly admired just came
at me like a blow to the chest. I knew he had struggled with
addiction in the past, he'd battled depression but I thought he was
doing just fine. However, this goes to show, you can never know what
a person is thinking.
Everyone, depression isn't something
that just goes away overnight. You can't just throw a pill at it and
deem a person cured. It's a daily war with yourself and sometimes,
you lose. I'm not saying everyone with depression will attempt
suicide. However, it's harder to live. Normal, every day activities
are suddenly uninteresting, friends become enemies for no real reason
and sometimes, food might as well be sandpaper. It's hard to
function. Getting out of bed might be a huge victory on some of the
worse days.
I have been living with severe
depression for about half my life. I know how hard it can be to just
smile or find a shred of happiness. I also know that pills don't
solve everything. In my case, there are certain drugs that increase
my negative symptoms. Currently, I take a pill that works but its
only a matter of time until I build up a tolerance to that as well.
This is why not everyone can take medication and fix the problem.
There are so many little aspects to it. For instance, don't
criticize someone who does struggle with depression. Telling them to
just get over it won't help. It makes them feel like having a mental
disorder is their fault, which places a lot of guilt on them.
There are people who are willing to
listen and to help. I am one of them, if you wish to remain
anonymous. I know where you're coming from and I don't want to lose
anyone else to depression and suicide.
Please, if you are feeling suicidal,
call someone. Whether its a help hotline, a friend or a family
member, just remember that you are loved. I'm reminded of another
great man, another man I admired, who also committed suicide, and
these words ring true, no matter what the occasion. So whenever you
feel like you don't deserve to live or that someone would be happier
if you were dead or if you just think you are stupid and unloved,
please, please, PLEASE, remember these words:
You know what?
I want you all to look at me.
I want you to look at me because
what I'm about to say is important
I been thinking about this a lot
lately and I want y'all to know this
This goes out to everybody.
You're not stupid.
Ok?
You're not stupid.
Don't ever tell yourself you are.
You're important.
What you have in your head may
not mean a lot to a lot of people but that's what makes you special
You are important.
You are special
You mean something
You're going to go out there and
do wonderful things.
But first and foremost, you're
not stupid
You're not an idiot.
Don't ever tell yourself you are.
And if nobody else ever tells you
this, I care about you.
Those words came from Justin “JewWario” Carmichal, a contributor
to Channel Awesome.
If you don't believe me, then let Nash (also from Channel Awesome) explain depression: (strong
language warning)
I'm TheCinemaChick and you are never truly alone. I'm always here for those who need me.
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